Because it may seem like a small role now, but it matters. In the end, everything matters.

Yes, it feels great to plan your life when you believe everything can turn out fine. But what about when you're shown, again and again, how little control you have over anything? No matter what I do to try to fix my future, it doesn't work.

She wants to believe my excuses so bad. Every time I lie, she wants to believe me so much.

Hannah wasn't my first kiss, but the first kiss that mattered: the first kiss with someone who mattered. (pg 222).

It's nothing. A school project. My go-to answer for anything. Staying out late? School project. Need extra money? School project.

Because our lies matched. It was a sign.

Maybe it didn’t seem like a big deal to you Zach. But now, I hope you understand. My world was collapsing. I needed those notes. I needed any hope those notes might have offered. And you? You took that hope away. You decided I didn’t deserve to have it.