Because our lies matched. It was a sign.

And concentrating on the spot where the two spindles should be is the closest I get to looking Hannah's eyes as she tells my story.

They were like two magnets who couldn't decide whether to attract or repel.

And after I dropped him off, I took the longest possible route home... I explored alleys and hidden roads I never knew existed. I discovered neighborhoods entirely new to me. And finally... I discovered I was sick of this town and everything in it.

I sat. And I thought. And the more I thought, connecting the events in my life, the more my heart collapsed.

That's why you did it. You wanted your world to collapse around you. You wanted everything to get as dark as possible.

My heart and my trust were in the process of collapsing. And that collapse created a vacuum in my chest.