That's why you did it. You wanted your world to collapse around you. You wanted everything to get as dark as possible.

What the hell happened to Pluto?!

Because I've heard so many stories that I don't know which one is the most popular. But I do know which is the least popular. The truth.

And what if in the future we're at war again, or we still haven't elected a non-white or non-male president, or the Rolling Stones are still dragging their tired old butts on stage? That would depress me way too much.

You can't go back to how things were. How you thought they were. All you really have is...now.

I hope you're ready, because I'm about to tell you the story of my life. More specifically, why my life ended. And if you're listening to these tapes, you're one of the reasons why.

Maybe it didn’t seem like a big deal to you Zach. But now, I hope you understand. My world was collapsing. I needed those notes. I needed any hope those notes might have offered. And you? You took that hope away. You decided I didn’t deserve to have it.