It was like letting go and falling back into water and seeing yourself grinning up through the water, your face like a mask, and seeing the bubbles coming up as if you were trying to speak from under the water. And how do you know what it's like to try to speak from under water when you're drowned?

Soon he'll come in again and kiss me, but differently. He'll be different and so I'll be different. It'll be different. I thought, 'It'll be different, different. It must be different.

She had left me thirsty and all my life would be thirst and longing for what I had lost before I found it.

I've been so ridiculous all my life that a little bit more or a little bit less hardly matters now.

...morbidly, attracted him to strangeness, to recklessnesss, even unhappiness.

Now at last I know why I was brought here and what I have to do.

I sit at my window and the words fly past me like birds — with God's help I catch some.