It hurts to much to be close to you, but continually pushed away.

You're the light I can never have and I'm the darkness you'll never succumb to.

I'll miss you forever.' Blake - Devil To Pay

I'd address his way of trying to discourage Ian later. After all, he could have come up with something other than saying I was a whiny, smelly, trumpet-snoring bad lay.

"If you’d refrain from slamming my face any more into this dirty rock floor, I’ll do whatever you like," was his even reply. "Fancy letting my head go?" "Sure," I said with an unpleasant snicker, not relinquishing an ounce of pressure. "How about I let you floss with my jugular as well? I don’t think so."

I’d heard Bones threaten to beat someone with their own limb before, but I’d always assumed that was a figure of speech. Apparently not.

We had to play the hand we were dealt, all of us. Fighting the battles we could win.