Stranded in this mill town railroad yard while the whole world was converging elsewhere, we seemed to be nothing but children playing among heroic men.
John KnowlesIt was hard to remember in the heavy and sensual clarity of these mornings; I forgot whom I hated and who hated me. I wanted to break out crying from stabs of hopeless joy, or intolerable promise, or because these mornings were too full of beauty for me, because I knew of too much hate to be contained in a world like this.
John KnowlesYour war memories will be with you forever, you'll be asked about them thousands of times after the war is over. People will get their respect for you from that-partly from that, don't get me wrong-but if you can say that you were up front where there was some real shooting going on, then that will mean a whole lot to you in years to come.
John KnowlesAs I walked briskly out the road the wind knifed at my face, but this sun caressed the back of my neck.
John KnowlesLife is fighting. In life, it's the look ahead that counts. We are all born equally far from the sun. There is a land of the living and a land of the dead and the bridge is love.
John KnowlesNever say you are five feet nine when you are five feet eight and a half" was the first one I encountered. Another was, "Always say some prayers at night because it might turn out that there is a God.
John KnowlesSo the more things remained the same, the more they changed after all. Nothing endures. Not love, not a tree, not even a death by violence.
John KnowlesAs I said, this was my sarcastic summer. It was only long after that I recognized sarcasm as the protest of people who are weak.
John KnowlesThe best teaching I ever experienced was at Exeter. Yale was a distinct letdown afterward.
John KnowlesI knew that part of friendship consisted in accepting a friend’s shortcomings, which sometimes included his parents.
John KnowlesMy father was in the coal business in West Virginia. Both dad and mother were, however, originally from Massachusetts; New England, to them, meant the place to go if you really wanted an education.
John KnowlesI began to know that each morning reasserted the problems of night before, that sleep suspended all but changed nothing, that you couldn’t make yourself over between dawn and dusk.
John KnowlesI felt that I was not, never had been and never would be a living part of this overpoweringly solid and deeply meaningful world around me.
John KnowlesExeter was, I suspect, more crucial in my life than in the lives of most members of my class, and conceivably, than in the lives of almost anyone else who ever attended the school.
John KnowlesYou have to do what you think is the right thing, but just make sure it’s the right thing in the long run, and not just for the moment.
John KnowlesEveryone has a moment in history which belongs particularly to him. It is the moment when his emotions achieve their most powerful sway over him, and afterward when you say to this person "the world today" or "life" or "reality" he will assume that you mean this moment, even if it is fifty years past. The world, through his unleashed emotions, imprinted itself upon him, and he carries the stamp of that passing moment forever.
John KnowlesIt seemed clear that wars were not made by generations and their special stupidities, but that wars were made instead by something ignorant in the human heart
John KnowlesBut I was used to finding something deadly in things that attracted me; there was always something deadly lurking in anything I wanted, anything I loved.
John KnowlesWhat I mean is, I love winter, and when you really love something, then it loves you back, in whatever way it has to love.
John KnowlesPeace is indivisible, and the surrounding world confusion found no reflection inside me.
John KnowlesThere are simply more young people than there ever were. You get this feeling of strength. Also, large numbers can be a drawback, making it difficult to lose one's anonymity.
John KnowlesThis was the tree, and it seemed to me standing there to resemble those men, the giants of your childhood, whom you encounter years later and find that they are not merely smaller in relation to your growth, but they are absolutely smaller, shrunken by age. In this double demotion the old giants have become pygmies while you were looking the other way.
John KnowlesI lost part of myself to him then, and a soaring sense of freedom revealed that this must have been my purpose from the first: to become a part of Phineas.
John KnowlesIt is a sad day when one looks back and sees that his largest regrets have become some of the most integral elements of his dreams.
John KnowlesYoung people in my generation were sort of in lockstep, and it wasn't just the '40s, either. In the '30s and in the '50s it was the same. No one ever dropped out unless he got sick or got kicked out.
John KnowlesAll of them, all except Phineas, constructed at infinite cost to themselves these Maginot Lines against this enemy they thought they saw across the frontier, this enemy who never attacked that way-if he ever attacked at all; if he was indeed the enemy.
John KnowlesI did no know everything there was to know about myself, and knew that I did not know it.
John KnowlesLooking back now across fifteen years I could see with great clarity the fear I had lived in, which must mean that in the interval I had succeeded in a very important undertaking: I must have made my escape from it.
John KnowlesIt was demeaning to scrape affection from virtually everyone you encountered. That was immature.
John KnowlesI never killed anybody and I never developed an intense level of hatred for the enemy. Because my war ended before I ever put on a uniform; I was on active duty all my time at school; I killed my enemy there.
John KnowlesThe next major advance in the health of the American people will be determined by what the individual is willing to do for himself.
John Knowles