But something held me back. Perhaps I was stopped by that level of feeling, deeper than thought, which contains the truth.

What I mean is, I love winter, and when you really love something, then it loves you back, in whatever way it has to love.

the scornful force of his tone turned the word into a curse

Always say some prayers at night because it might turn out that there is a God.

There are simply more young people than there ever were. You get this feeling of strength. Also, large numbers can be a drawback, making it difficult to lose one's anonymity.

Your war memories will be with you forever, you'll be asked about them thousands of times after the war is over. People will get their respect for you from that-partly from that, don't get me wrong-but if you can say that you were up front where there was some real shooting going on, then that will mean a whole lot to you in years to come.

As I said, this was my sarcastic summer. It was only long after that I recognized sarcasm as the protest of people who are weak.