The only way I see an out is for you to take full responsibility.
Forgiveness is not cheap even though it's free.
Influence is the platform God gives you to help others succeed.
If God did not care for you, there would never be a sense of a need to respond.
It is estimated over 80% of all illnesses today are spiritual in nature.
David did not pay for his forgiveness. He did pay for his unforgiveness.