No one I interact with - except maybe for family and strangers at the Russian baths and other weird places I may go to - is just friends or lovers with me: they also know something of my writing and this distorts their take on me.
Jonathan AmesA lot of writing is a form of seeing - putting down what you see in terms of action and landscape.
Jonathan AmesMostly I have to try to censor myself so as not to write things that will hurt other people, or that will go too far.
Jonathan AmesNothing wrong with changing your mind. That's a very unwaffling thing to say: "Nothing wrong..." Who am I to say that there's nothing wrong with it? Maybe something is wrong with changing your mind. Anyway, love is very, very difficult. I love. But probably because I hate myself on some deep, sick level, it makes loving difficult. But I do try.
Jonathan Ames