Sometimes the dying live more fiercely and wisely than the rest of us. (146)
Our internal artist is always our creative child.
Creativity requires faith. Faith requires that we relinquish control.
But do you know how old I will be by the time I learn to really play the piano / act / paint / write a decent play?" Yes . . . the same age you will be if you don't.
What payoff are you getting for remaining stuck at this point in your expansion?
When we stop playing God, God can play through us.