I don't sleep. All night long I'm wide awake, thinking, Secrets, secrets, secrets. There are secrets in my past no one needs to know. Secrets in my present that might kill Kim and Chip. I don't want to take my secrets with me when I go. When I pass through the light, i want to be free of everything and everyone.

I hated him. I hated them all. They made me hate myself even more than I already did.

Why am i here? What's my purpose?

His eyes are like a telescope. I look into them and I'm transported across the universe to a world I've never been.

Me? I had no dreams. No longings. Dreams only set you up for disappointment. Plus, you had to have a life to have dreams of a better life.

I close my eyes and black out the day. The exhaustion of living through it, surviving.

Year after year. "Please don't make me go [to school]" "You have to go," Kim would say. "It's a new school, make a new start." "Sticks and stones." from Chip. Words will only kill you.