Maybe I'm completely different from everyone else.

Everyone's really different. I've worked with women who I've never wanted to tell anything about myself to, and I've worked with guys who have been pouring wells of emotion. So emotional availability is not a gender-specific thing.

I kind of like to look like a hobo.

It's this weird thing that I always feel like I have to gauge in myself, like, "Don't come on too strong because you won't get your way."

I just really am trying, trying, all the time. But I like to be scared. I love to suddenly feel out of control.

People sometimes actually get me to think I take things too seriously and maybe I'm too earnest and it's coming across like I'm better than them.

The act is in itself a lie. You're faking something. The girl is lying there, she's pretending that she doesn't know the camera's on, she's getting banged, and "accidentally" it leaks out? Everyone leaks their own sex tapes! That's a ploy to get famous - that's not about the sex. It's not like when Madonna did her Sex book, and it was an artistic endeavor where she acknowledged it and spoke about it and was so upfront about it. It's different. It's not upfront. It's not honest. It's a ploy to get famous.