I wanted to live, but whether I would or not was mystery, and in the midst of confronting that fact, even at that moment, I was beginning to sense that to stare into the heart of such a fearful mystery wasn't a bad thing. To be afraid is a priceless education. P 99

I tried to control the narrative.

Pain is only temporary. Quitting is forever!

We have two options, medically and emotionally: give up or fight like hell.

Life to me is a series of false limits and my challenge as an athlete is to explore those limits

I know what happened to cycling from 1999 to 2005. I saw its growth, I saw its expansion.

My cocktail, so to speak, was only EPO, but not a lot, transfusions and testosterone.