sometimes I was so bored that I started arguments just to experience the rush of almost losing him.

I felt like my parents were always involved with abstraction, and I wanted to do something very specific.

Women want to control other women because they've been controlled themselves. It's a cycle of control. I'm not blaming women for that, but I am saying we're part of a toxic culture that's feeding all of us the same messaging.

I always imagined that having a baby is something that I'm going to keep in a private place, but maybe my curse is that all I'm going to want to do is tell everybody about what my birth process was like and what my children's nightmares are.

I would go to work from 9 to 6, go home, nap for two hours, then write from 8 to 2 a.m.

I remember it made me feel better because so many of my friends at school. Were doing that stuff and doing that stuff on sleep overs. But I just didn't feel ready. It wasn't like I had any judgment of it being two women. It would have scared me as much if not more. I was like a three month period in which all the words sleep over was code for was "let's get together and touch each other's vaginas." and I was. Haunted. And I remember going home and feeling like I couldn't tell my mother even though she would've understood and probably laughed.

Once, my little sister was walking down the street in her thick black glasses, and a homeless man muttered, Talk nerdy to me.