For my entire life I longed for love. I knew it was not right for me โ as a girl and later as a woman โ to want or expect it, but I did, and this unjustified desire has been at the root of every problem I have experienced in my life.
Lisa SeeSnow Flower was my old same for life. I had a greater and deeper love for her than I could ever feel for a person who was my husband.
Lisa SeeHe was in my hair, my eyes, my fingers, my heart. I day-dreamed about what he was doing, thinking, seeing, smelling, feeling. I could not eat for thoughts of him.
Lisa SeeIt's funny how in that moment I see things clearly. Am I beaten down? Yes. Have I allowed myself to become a victim? Somewhat. Am I afraid? Always. Does some part of me still long to fly away from this place? Absolutely. But I can't leave. Sam and I have built a life for Joy. It isn't perfect, but it's a life. My family's happiness means more to me that starting over again. Page 210
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