But I'm looking at life, and I'm putting nothing off.

So I - the thought that I would physically be different was - it's not a thrill, I have to tell you. It's kind of - it brings you up short. But I was able to look at it right away.

I find love from time to time.

I don't put off any time with my grandchildren. I don't put off a thing.

It eats you up. It eats you up. And you have to - I had a lot of help. I had a lot of therapy. And I was able to - because it was hard, you know, to - you can't just lay it on friends and children.

And yet, I suppose you mourn the loss or the death of what you thought your life was, even if you find your life is better after. You mourn the future that you thought you'd planned.

Over the last few years, my comfort level with how I look has improved. My age has helped. You get used to yourself and accept yourself.