Over the last few years, my comfort level with how I look has improved. My age has helped. You get used to yourself and accept yourself.

I don't put off any time with my grandchildren. I don't put off a thing.

It eats you up. It eats you up. And you have to - I had a lot of help. I had a lot of therapy. And I was able to - because it was hard, you know, to - you can't just lay it on friends and children.

And yet, I suppose you mourn the loss or the death of what you thought your life was, even if you find your life is better after. You mourn the future that you thought you'd planned.

I don't want to have to say, Honey, you know, could you turn off the sports channel because I'm not a big sports fan, and I don't love the television being on just for the sake of turning on. I'd like turning on for some thing specific.

I find love from time to time.

God always has another custard pie up his sleeve.