They have - they do still hit me occasionally, and it's an overwhelming grief for what - even though my life is so good now, even including going through treatment for cancer, my life is incredible.

But when this happens to you - and I think other people would identify with this - suddenly, colors are brighter. You see everything.

I don't want to marry again. I did that.

God always has another custard pie up his sleeve.

I did become American citizen in order to vote. I lived in this country for a very long time and I finally reached the point where I thought, I'm often sticking my neck out on various issues as all human beings have a right to do.

And so I was very grateful that I didn't do the British stiff upper lip, but I went straight to a therapist. And she was wonderful and helpful, and I went for about two years.

Over the last few years, my comfort level with how I look has improved. My age has helped. You get used to yourself and accept yourself.