You've recognised a fundamental feature of an addict's life. Maintaining your habit is so important you've no real interest in anything else.

Waiting to be 'better' is the wrong approach. It's learning to live with it.

when happiness makes a guest appearance in one's life,it's important to make the most of it.It may not stay around for long and when it has gone wouldn't it be terrible to think that all the time one could have been happy was wasted worrying when the happiness would be taken away.

Love is blind, there was no doubt about it. In Tara's case it was also deaf, dumb, dyslexic, had a bad hip and the beginnings of Alzheimer's

It was only when the salt water of my tears ran into my cuts and made them sting that I discovered I was crying.

No more humiliation for me, thanks very much. No more swallowing my anger. Honestly, I couldn't manage another mouthful. But it was delicious. Did you make it yourself?

Nothing sinister. Just getting exercise. Although some might consider that sinister.