There were stars. They burned my eyes.

It was the beginning of the greatest Christmas ever. Little food. No presents. But there was a snowman in their basement.

The first couple of times, he simply stayed - a stranger to kill the aloneness. A few nights after that, he whispered “Shhh, I’m here, its alright.” After three weeks, he held her. Trust was accumulated quickly, due primarily to the brute strength of the man’s gentleness, his thereness.

The days and nights come apart. I feel them corroding at the seams.

We're silent now, both waiting, till I remind myself that I'm the older one and should therefore initiate conversation. But I don't. I don't want to waste this girl with idle chitchat. She's beautiful.

Very suddenly. Yes, quite suddenly, I didn't feel like I could handle my feeling of aloneness.

The nightmares arrived like they always did, much like the best player in the opposition when you've heard rumors that he might be injured or sick-but there he is, warming up with the rest of them, ready to take the field.