But to win, I was overwhelmed - it felt great! I was really excited. I didn't expect it, but I'm also really competitive. As soon as I hear the word "competition" I get serious and start doing everything that I can do.

This thing in society that you have to be a stick will always be in my mind, but that's just something I have to deal with.

I didn't think I could be my imperfect self. I pretended I was Marcia, so I was always playing this role. I became her, but yet I wasn't. It's strange.

From what I've been able to figure out, all of us are here together and we need one another. We must celebrate each other's differences. Learning to ask for help is as important as learning the value of helping other people. I believe all the people in my life have been there for a reason, and I hope I have been in theirs for a reason as well. It's taken me a while, but I feel truly blessed. After all is said and done, I love life, I love people, and I love being me.

If you aren't going to do something all the way, don't do it.

I hit rock bottom when I was doing "The Brady Brides." I was supposed to be at the studio, screen testing to pick the guy that would play my husband. At this time, I had been up for three days doing coke and was playing solitaire in my closet.

I have kissed all the girls I worked with! I'm just a very affectionate person, I love to hug and kiss people I care about. It was taken the wrong way in tabloids, and people insinuated all kinds of things. I called her to tell her what happened, but unfortunately, this was one of the things that stopped our relationship.