Even with the best intentions, growing apart might just be an inevitable part of growing up.
Megan McCaffertyI know it makes sense for me and him to just break up now and just live our seperate lives and not have to worry about missing each other all the time. But when I think about that, I get sick. Physically sick. Like I seriously throw up. I need to be with him, even if I canโt, like, be with him.
Megan McCaffertyI almost canโt believe Iโm going to make myself vulnerable to him again. But what is love but the most extreme and exquisite form of risk perception? I know that relationships donโt last. And yet, with him, the risk of not being with him is much worse than any other hurt I can imagine.
Megan McCaffertyI thought Marcus was going to be in my life forever. Then I thought I was wrong. Now heโs back. But this time I know whatโs certain: Marcus will be gone again, and back again and again and again because nothing is permanent. Especially people. Strangers become friends. Friends become lovers. Lovers become strangers. Strangers become friends once more, and over and over. Tomorrow, next week, fifty years from now, I know Iโll get another one-word postcard from Marcus, because this one doesnโt have a period signifying the end of the sentence. Or the end of anything at all.
Megan McCafferty