This is my new hobby. I watch my life depart minute by minute. I anticipate the end of everything and anything -- a conversation, a class, track practice, darkness -- only to be left with more clock-watching to take its place. I'm continually waiting for something better that never comes. Maybe it would help if I knew what I wanted.

Every day, I live a lie But not the crocodile kind.

I'm in crisis. I'm about to bump with a five-foot chino-chicano.

The minute our correspondence becomes obligatory, there's no point in keeping touch at all.

That's what all love comes down to, doesn't it? We help others only as much as they let us.

I don't know if she's making the right choice, but it's not my choice to make. I promise to support her, whatever she decides. Because that's what sisters do.

Hornergy' is Zen's term for the indomitable athletic edge powered by sexual restraint. The basketball, baseball and football teams haven't had a winning season in years. The table-tennis team, however, is undefeated.