It's a really crappy feeling to realize that your entire outook on your life can be controlled by some little pill that looks like a Pez, and that some weird combination of drugs can make your brain think it's on a holiday somewhere really sweet when you're standing naked in the middle of the school cafeteria while everyone takes pictures of you. Metaphorically. Or whatever.
Michael Thomas FordIโve been thinking about that ever since. Am I lucky? Am I lucky that I didnโt die? Am I lucky that, compared to the other kids here, my life doesnโt seem so bad? Maybe I am, but I have to say, I donโt feel lucky. For one thing, Iโm stuck in this pit. And just because your life isnโt as awful as someone elseโs, that doesnโt mean it doesnโt suck. You canโt compare how you feel to the way other people feel. It just doesnโt work. What might look like the perfect lifeโor even an okay lifeโto you might not be so okay for the person living it.
Michael Thomas FordAnd itโs not like Iโve never jacked off. Iโm fifteen years old. Of course I do it. Any guy who says he doesnโt is lying. That would be like having the coolest video game ever and never playing it. No oneโs that stupid.
Michael Thomas Ford