I mean, I am still such the-good-girl. I want everybody to like me. I want everybody to be happy.

I just came in this morning with one goal; to make it back tonight, so I'm very excited for the final.

I started acting as a child in Community Theatre but I didn't do any serious stuff. It was all musicals like 'Annie' and 'Wizard of Oz.' I was always in the chorus.

I feel like something has changed for me, but it’s a new change, so it’s going to be hard for me to describe. Maybe it has something to do with turning 30. I don’t feel as shy or nervous or self-conscious. I have more confidence that I can handle what life brings me. I don’t feel scared to have an idea and express it. I feel giddy about it because it’s a complete transformation. It’s like I’ve found my voice.

Whatever education I got was from experience and reading. But I also realize I wouldn't pass my friend's sixth-grade class.

Grief is like a moving river, so that's what I mean by it's always changing. It's a strange thing to say because I'm at heart an optimistic person, but I would say in some ways it just gets worse. It's just that the more time that passes, the more you miss someone.

Because whatever I feel inside, it has a place to go. It just saves me over and over and over again.