All the ups and downs are grace in different wrappings, sent to refine consciousness. Say thanks to them all.
MoojiSelf-Enquiry is not asking you to believe or to trust - it is putting a mirror in front of you and asking you to look. Enquiry is suited to many people in the West, because we are more mental. And it is very direct. So unsparing is its look that nothing can escape.
Mooji