You are learning too much, remembering too much, trying to hard relax a little bit, give life a chance to flow its own way, unassisted by your mind and effort. Stop directing the river's flow!
MoojiBlessed is the mind that jumps over and beyond its own conditioning and lands again into its natural state of unmoving awareness.
MoojiGod can never be close. God can never be close because it would mean that there is some place where God is not. God is infinite. We cannot exist outside of the infinite. Therefore, God is our Reality.
Mooji