Things to do today: 1) Breathe in. 2) Breathe out.

My brain was all right back then; it didn't get stuck in ruts.

I want to live but I want to die. What do I do?

It’s tough to get out of bed; I know that myself. You can lie there for an hour and a half without thinking anything, just worrying about what the day holds and knowing that you won’t be able to deal with it.

But some people have to get lucky just to live. And I never knew I could make anybody lucky.

And I could have died right then. And considering how things went, I really should have.

I eat not because I want to, not because I have to overcome anything, not to prove myself to anyone, but because it's there. I eat because that's what people do. And somehow when the food is put in front of you by an institution, when there's a large gray force behind it and you don't have to thank anyone for it, you have the animal instinct to make it disappear.