Things to do today: 1) Breathe in. 2) Breathe out.

A lot of the books that I grew up reading were pretty brutal, like the Redwall books.

I want to live but I want to die. What do I do?

Of course I wasn't abused. If I were; things would be so simple. I'd have a reason to for being in a shrinks office. I'd have a justification and something to work on. The world wasn't going to give me something that tidy.

Relationships change even more than people. It's like two people changing. It's exponentially more volatile. Especially two teenagers.

I feel dead, wasted, awful, broken and useless. It's not the kind of feeling you forget.

And when you say the truth you get stronger.