The only advice I can give you is what you're telling yourself. Only, maybe you're too scared to listen.
Neil GaimanI wanted to put a reference to masturbation in one of the scripts for the Sandman. It was immediately cut by the editor [Karen Berger]. She told me, "There's no masturbation in the DC Universe." To which my reaction was, "Well, that explains a lot about the DC Universe."
Neil GaimanMy heartโฆ It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like itโs trying to escape because it doesnโt belong to me any more. It belongs to you.
Neil Gaiman[D]on't ever apologize to an author for buying something in paperback, or taking it out from a library (that's what they're there for. Use your library). Don't apologize to this author for buying books second hand, or getting them from bookcrossing or borrowing a friend's copy. What's important to me is that people read the books and enjoy them, and that, at some point in there, the book was bought by someone. And that people who like things, tell other people. The most important thing is that people read.
Neil Gaiman