Statistically, people who have been happily married and then widowed tend to remarry.

Also, in a funny way, if you have been happily married there are no unresolved areas, nothing to prove to yourself after the other dies.

In fact I am quite snappy and irritable, and I don't know if I'd like to make myself worse in that respect.

At some stages of your life you will deal with things and at others you are overwhelmed with misery and anxiety.

I'm not someone who's endlessly patient and wonderful.

You don't go around grieving all the time, but the grief is still there and always will be.

I think maybe when you live with someone who is really very ill for a long time, it somehow gives you more of a greedy appetite for life and maybe, yes, you are less measured in your behaviour than you would otherwise be.