You don't go around grieving all the time, but the grief is still there and always will be.

I know the crew so well, so I forget I'm being filmed. It's like cooking with a friend in the kitchen - you're talking, as you do, and maybe you're telling her about this wonderful way to prepare lamb chops - it's more natural, more honest.

In fact I am quite snappy and irritable, and I don't know if I'd like to make myself worse in that respect.

I was a quiet teenager, introverted, full of angst.

People who have fabulous childhoods have this sense that nothing is ever going to be that good again. With me, I have the sense that nothing is going to be that bad.

Also, in a funny way, if you have been happily married there are no unresolved areas, nothing to prove to yourself after the other dies.

I am not sure about facelifts because I wouldn't want to be someone who just looks like she's had a facelift.