Of course they were saying: No doping! But as a rider, it's difficult to believe that things can really change from one day to the next.

Of course they were saying: No doping! But as a rider, it's difficult to believe that things can really change from one day to the next.

The patient in the bed next to me told me that the newspapers were reporting on the test, and it was on television all day long.

The truth is that things were already going so poorly for me that nothing surprised me anymore. But then the BKA sent 20 agents to search my house.

The crazy thing is that I really wasn't under any pressure. My contract wasn't going to expire until the end of 2008, and everyone was satisfied with me. But I wasn't. I always wanted to improve.

I made a big mistake. There's no doubt about it. But there have been positive testing cases in the past where the offender wasn't attacked to quite the same extent, especially not by other riders.

I assumed the amount wouldn't be detectable. I also didn't feel that I had done anything wrong.