My mother had to justify the fact that she had heart pills.

I stayed in Hamburg a few more days, and during that time I received a visit from Rolf Aldag, the sporting director at T-Mobile. He advised me to tell the truth.

I wasn't in a position to defend myself. Sometimes it's a brutal profession. The first thing I thought of at the time was revenge. I have a more levelheaded take on the issue today.

I assumed the amount wouldn't be detectable. I also didn't feel that I had done anything wrong.

The patient in the bed next to me told me that the newspapers were reporting on the test, and it was on television all day long.

I rubbed the contents of one bag onto my upper arm on the evening of June 7, just before I went to bed. I thought: Well, it can't hurt. I flushed the packaging down the toilet.

I can count off on one hand the number of times I've used testosterone gel - because it doesn't really do much.