That defining moment at my friend's house, when his uncle looks in my eye and reads me the word of God, I have an awakening.

There must be a reason that these bad things happen to me. I must be dysfunctional. So why would my dad leave? Why would he kill himself? Why would I be violated? And when you're 6-years-old, you can't comprehend that. But as you get much older in life, you begin to think what's wrong with me?

I can't tell what god will do because I'm not God. I can only take you back to biblical principle.

When I'm 18 years old, I'm at a friend's house. And his uncle looks me in me eye - you know, by this time I'm an over achiever, a pretty good student, etc. And he said I have the answer to your problems. I have the solution to your pain. And he held up this book. It's a bible. I didn't know what it was.

Good means ultimately he's producing character in me to conform me into the image of Christ.

I am saying there is someone that I have a message and purpose for, that God will bring in my pathway, because one thing I'm committed is never to waste my trials in life, to find purpose in all things and especially the places of pain.

When seasons change in our life, it's difficult. Because it feels like loss and no one likes loss. And I go through, how do you do that? How do you take that transition without losing it in the curve?