I'm thankful for not ever taking anything illegal.

I want to feel secure personally. Have a competitive team out there -- I really want to win; I hate losing -- and, I guess, I want to be treated like a normal person.

There was always something missing in Montreal.

I'm open to play for anybody that would give me respect, treat me the right way, and actually going to make me feel comfortable.

All I can say is, I will put my heart and soul into helping the Red Sox win.

Actually the adrenaline of the game will probably help me out a little bit to regain command and concentration about the things that I have to do.

Some other things I don't miss: the media and the pressure of just being asked to do, and being asked questions every day.