I always looked forward to being an adult, because I thought the adult world was, wellโadult. That adults werenโt cliquey or nasty, that the whole notion of being cool, or in, or popular would case to be the arbiter of all things social, but I was beginning to realize that the adult world was as nonsensically brutal and socially perilous as the kingdom of childhood.
Peter CameronIt was strange to see someone you have only known alone begin interacting with other people, for that somebody known to you disappears and is replaced by a different, more complex, person. You watch him revolve in this new company, revealing new facets, and there is nothing you can do but hope you like these other sides as much as you like the side that seemed whole when it faced only you.
Peter CameronNew York is strange in the summer. Life goes on as usual but itโs not, itโs like everyone is just pretending, as if everyone has been cast as the star in a movie about their life, so theyโre one step removed from it. And then in September it all gets normal again.
Peter CameronI suppose most people would think that it was wonderful, that the world is so varied, that there is something for everyone, and I don't know why I felt so closed and bitter and threatened by things I did not like.
Peter CameronWhat if she was meant to be, or could have been, someone important in my life? I think that's what scares me: the randomness of everything. That the people who could be important to you might just pass you by. Or you pass them by.
Peter Cameron