I squeezed my eyes shut and took several deep breaths, trying not to smell Jace in front of me, not to taste him on my lips. But it was useless. In that moment, Jace was everywhere. He was in my mind, he was in my heart, and he was in my memory. He smelled good. He tasted good. And the blissful aftershock still throbbing in my most sensitive places felt wonderful, when everything else in my life was an obstacle to be overcome.
Rachel VincentI donโt want to love himโthis would be so much simpler if I didnโt. But I do. Heโs funny, and passionate, and strong, and he believes in me more than I even believe in myself. When he looks at me, I feel like I could take on the whole world and come out standing tall. I like myself better when Iโm with him, because of how he sees me. He makes me feel beautiful and powerful, like Iโm the most important thing in the world, and I donโt know how to walk away from that. I donโt know how to walk away from him.
Rachel VincentSorry doesnโt mean anything! Not when youโre still with him. Itโs not just that you cheatedโitโs that heโs still here, and youโre still with him. It just goes on and on, and it hurts every single time I see you with him. I hate it that he makes you smile, and that thereโs nothing I can do to stop this. I canโt think straight, and everything hurts, and nothing makes sense anymore. Youโre shredding my heart with one hand and stroking his ego with the other. And itโs killing me, Faythe. Youโre killing me. And itโs only going to get worse, now that everyone knows.
Rachel Vincent