Carrying a grudge is difficult work that brings nothing of value. Forgive, and be free.
If you focus on the obstacles, then you give them more power.
What you are longing for is longing for you.
Meaning is found not in the rewards, for they are only tokens. Seek not to have the gold medal. Instead, seek to be the person who can win the gold medal. It is in the quest that you'll find the fulfillment which the reward represents.
It doesn't matter how much you want. What really matters is how much you want it.
Sure, there are many bad things that can happen. Yet you can be aware of them, and realistic about them, without being obsessed and consumed by them.