I don't care what the stars say about how small we are. One, even the smallest, weakest, most insignificant one, matters.
Rick YanceyHe barely knew I existed. I knew some of the same people he knew, but I was a girl in the background, several degrees of seperation removed.
Rick YanceyI am a shark, Cassie," he says slowly, drawing the words out, as if he might be speaking to me for the last time. Looking into my eyes with tears in his, as if he's seeing me for the last time. "A shark who dreamed he was a man.
Rick YanceyHow oft do they rescue or ruin us, through whimsy or design or a combination of both, the adults to whom we entrust our care!
Rick YanceyHave you fallen in love, Will Henry?" "That's stupid." "What is? Love, or my question?" "I don't know." "You don't know? You've tried that trick once. What do you suppose it will work better the second time?" "I don't love her. She bothers me." "You have just defined the very thing you denied.
Rick YanceyBut monsters, I now know, come in all shapes and sizes, and only their appetite for human flesh defines them.
Rick YanceyMaybe you reach a certain point in evolution where boredom is the greatest threat to your survival. Maybe this isn't a planetary takeover at all, but a game. Like a kid pulling wings off flies.
Rick YanceyOh, Will Henry. After all we have been through, how could I send you away now, at our most critical hour? You are indispensable to me.
Rick YanceyAre you okay?" I (Cassie) call up to him. "Um. Define okay." (Ben) "Okay means you're not bleeding to death." "I'm okay.
Rick YanceyPerhaps that is our doom, our human curse, to never really know one another. We erect edifices in our minds about the flimsy framework of word and deed, mere totems of the true person, who, like the gods to whom the temples were built, remains hidden. We understand our own construct; we know our own theory; we love our own fabrication. Still . . . does the artifice of our affection make our love any less real?
Rick YanceyPlease, do not leave me, Will Henry. I would not survive it. You were nearly right. What Mr. Kendall was, I am always on the brink of becoming. And you - I do not pretend to know how or even why - but you pull me back from the precipice. You are the one... You are the one thing that keeps me Human.
Rick YanceyAs long as you draw breath anywhere -here or ten thousands miles from here- I will love you. I can't help loving you, so I choose to hate you...to make my love bearable.
Rick YanceyThere was, like, this black hole where the world used to be, and we were both falling toward it. What could we hold on to?
Rick YanceyHuman beings are remarkably resilient. When you think about it, our species has been teetering upon the edge of the existential cliff since Hiroshima. In short, we endure.
Rick YanceyHe spreads his fingers over my heart, like heโs holding it, like it belongs to him, the hard-fought-for territory heโs won fair and square.
Rick YanceySarcasm doesn't appear to work on him. If that's true, I'm in trouble: It's my normal mode of communication.
Rick YanceyGreat sci-fi has never shied from tackling the Big Questions, though really great sci-fi never forgets to entertain us along the way. Shock and awe applies to art, as well.
Rick YanceyAfter another half second, he's locked me in a bear hug, crushing me into his chest and lifting my feet a couple inches off the ground as I kick furiously with my heels, twisting my head back and forth, snapping at his forearm with my teeth. And the whole time his lips tickling the delicate skin of my ear. "Cassie. Don't. Cassie..." "Let...me...go." "That's been the whole problem. I can't.
Rick YanceyAfterward I told his widow, "Your husband is dead, but at least he died laughing.' I think she took some comfort in that. It is the second-best way to die, Will Henry." He did not say what the best way was.
Rick YanceyI'm one, too," he said. "What?" He spit a wad of blood and mucus into the dirt. "A virgin." What a shock. "What makes you think I'm a virgin?" I asked. "You wouldn't have hit me if you weren't.
Rick YanceyYou can only call someone crazy if thereโs someone else whoโs normal. Like good and evil. If everything was good, then nothing would be good.
Rick YanceyThere are things that are too terrible to remember, and there are things that are almost too wonderful to recall.
Rick YanceyThe spring rains woke the dormant tillers, and bright green shoots sprang from the moist earth and rose like sleepers stretching after a long nap. As spring gave way to summer, the bright green stalks darkened, became tan, turned golden brown. The days grew long and hot. Thick towers of swirling black clouds brought rain, and the brown stems glistened in the perpetual twilight that dwelled beneath the canopy. The wheat rose and the ripening heads bent in the prairie wind, a rippling curtain, an endless, undulating sea that stretched to the horizon.
Rick YanceyBut if I'm it, the last of my kind, the last page of human history, like hell I'm going to let the story end this way. I may be the last one, but I am the one still standing. I am the one turning to face the faceless hunter in the woods on an abandoned highway. I am the one not running but facing. Because if I am the last one, then I am humanity. And if this is humanity's last war, then I am the battlefield.
Rick YanceyI had it all wrong," he says. "Before I found you, I thought the only way to hold on was to find something to live for. It isn't. To hold on, you have to find something you're willing to die for.
Rick YanceyYou are the nest. You are the hatchling. You are the chrysalis. You are the progeny. You are the rot that falls from stars. You may not understand what I mean. You will.
Rick YanceyBut hope is no less realistic than despair. It is still our choice whether to live in light or lie down in darkness.
Rick YanceyI'm not encouraged by the silence. I can think of no benign reason for it. I'm afraid we may expect something closer to Christopher Columbus's arrival in the Americas than a scene from Close Encounters, and we all know how that turned out for the Native Americans.
Rick YanceyIn every creepy movie ever made, the barn is the prime nesting ground for the things you don't know you're looking for and always regret finding.
Rick YanceyA man lies upon the floor, spreads his arms, and transforms himself into a ship of a thousand sails.
Rick YanceyI was a slave to something he believed to be silly and superstitious: the idea that all life was worth defending and that nothing justified surrender to the forces of destruction.
Rick YanceyWhen the moment comes to stop running from your past, to turn around and face the thing you thought you could not face--the moment when your life teeters between giving up and getting up--when that moment comes, and it always comes, if you can't get up and you can't give up either, here's what you do: Crawl.
Rick Yancey