It's not painful to relive it. I'm comfortable with my position in American history.

I know and value what it means to wake up and be alive and to share my story. I'm so blessed to be here and to be able to talk about it.

I realize I will always be the poster child for police brutality, but I can try to use that as a positive force for healing and restraint.

I had to learn to forgive. I couldn't sleep at night. I got ulcers. I had to let go, to let God deal with it. No one wants to be mad in their own house. I didn't want to be angry my whole life. It takes so much energy out of you to be mean.

Waking up sober is a good day. I love being able to wake up and do positive things, to go to the gym.

It's happening right now... it's just not on film, it's not being recorded.

I tell myself time heals. It really does.