It's happening right now... it's just not on film, it's not being recorded.

What I've learned to do is arrest my addiction - arrest it myself, so I don't get arrested.

I had to learn to forgive. I couldn't sleep at night. I got ulcers. I had to let go, to let God deal with it. No one wants to be mad in their own house. I didn't want to be angry my whole life. It takes so much energy out of you to be mean.

For a long time, sure, I was letting the pressure of being Rodney King get to me. It ain't easy. Even now, I walk into a place wondering, 'What people are thinking? Do they know who I am? What do they think about what happened? Do they blame me for the all those people who died?'

I realize I will always be the poster child for police brutality, but I can try to use that as a positive force for healing and restraint.

It's happening right now... it's just not on film, it's not being recorded.

People look at me like I should have been like Malcolm X or Martin Luther King or Rosa Parks. I should have seen life like that and stay out of trouble, and don't do this and don't do that. But it's hard to live up to some people's expectations.