Be suspicious of what you want.
Oh Soul! You worry too much. Your arms are heavy with treasures of all kinds.
Whoever finds love beneath hurt and grief disappears into emptiness with a thousand new disguises
If all you can do is crawl, start crawling.
Those who are pure in heart achieve God-consciousness; they are truly and actually aware of God at the center of their being (their heart). These sanctified individuals are said to be Possessors of the Heart.
There is a Soul within the Soul. Seek it out. There is a Treasure in your mountain. Seek it Out. A mystic in motion, if that's what you are, don't seek out there; seek inside.