When we got knocked out against Porto in the Champions League, I only slept two hours that night. I was not a nice person to be with after that match. I was struggling to get the result out of my system.

I let people say and write what they want.

In that match for Holland I asked for a big responsibility, I got it and I dealt with it. I played well, I scored goals and the team qualified for the Euro 2004 finals. It was a big night and an important moment for Holland.

But really, I can only be dangerous for the team in one place, and that is in the box.

If you start to find that kind of luxury as a normal thing, you don't belong in the real world.

If I don't get the service or if I don't the ball in the box, where I want it, I start drifting into midfield. I go and look for the ball. I try to be important for the team in other areas.

Because people have read those things in the newspapers, they think it is true. Ten years ago all these things I have just mentioned would have upset me.