I have no conscience at all -- least of all an artistic conscience. All I have is nerves.
Ryūnosuke AkutagawaYes -- or rather, it's not so much that I want to die as that I'm tired of living.
Ryūnosuke Akutagawa..he understood far more deeply than anyone else the loneliness that lurked beneath his jaunty mask.
Ryūnosuke AkutagawaHe felt so lost, he said later, that the familiar studio felt like a haunted valley deep in the mountains, with the smell of rotting leaves, the spray of a waterfall, the sour fumes of fruit stashed away by a monkey; even the dim glow of the master's oil lamp on its tripod looked to him like misty moonlight in the hills.
Ryūnosuke Akutagawa