As much wrong as I did in life and as many people as I hurt, I can say that God never stopped talking to me. I just stopped listening.

It's just after I walked away from my addictions and the things that I struggled with, that's when I chose Jesus Christ and now he helps me and guides me through the rest of my life.

I'm more of a freedom fighter than I am a Christian. I serve Jesus Christ. How I believe is that God's promises are not for here on Earth. They're for when we leave this Earth and we go to Heaven - that's when there's no more tears, no more sorrows.

A lot of times people that aren't Christian, or that might not fully believe... they know there's a higher power but they don't fully believe, they'll say: "Well, if there's a God, how come children be mutilated?" But you've got to remember that the promises are when we leave this Earth and we go to Heaven. That's what I believe.

For me to sit here and give all kinds of excuses to make it right, I can't do. But what I want to ask everyone out there, everyone that has a child, everyone that has a brother, a sister: if your child or family member was abducted today, if a mad man came in, a terrorist came in, abducted your family member or your child and if I said to you I can bring your child home...does it matter how I bring them home?

I do a lot of drug and alcohol speaking with people to stop addictions. I'm not a Bible-thumper. I don't preach like that. I tell people that has addictions: "If you want your addiction cured, it begins right here. It begins right here." Jesus Christ is not a genie in a bottle. You got me? Jesus Christ can help you get through anything but even with addiction, he's not going to say 'hocus pocus, your addiction's gone'! You have to say: "I'm done!" It all begins right here in your mind.

I don't have a problem with dying but I have a problem with what I'm going to die for. I don't want to die for no reason at all. If I'm going to die for something, I want it to be worthwhile.