For me to sit here and give all kinds of excuses to make it right, I can't do. But what I want to ask everyone out there, everyone that has a child, everyone that has a brother, a sister: if your child or family member was abducted today, if a mad man came in, a terrorist came in, abducted your family member or your child and if I said to you I can bring your child home...does it matter how I bring them home?

As much wrong as I did in life and as many people as I hurt, I can say that God never stopped talking to me. I just stopped listening.

I was a drug dealer, so I've killed a lot of people, with drugs. When you're a drug dealer and you see drugs to people and you get them addicted and three or four years later they get killed in a car wreck, I have to answer for that. So, I've hurt a lot of people and done a lot of bad things that I have to answer for.

I do a lot of drug and alcohol speaking with people to stop addictions. I'm not a Bible-thumper. I don't preach like that. I tell people that has addictions: "If you want your addiction cured, it begins right here. It begins right here." Jesus Christ is not a genie in a bottle. You got me? Jesus Christ can help you get through anything but even with addiction, he's not going to say 'hocus pocus, your addiction's gone'! You have to say: "I'm done!" It all begins right here in your mind.

A lot of times people that aren't Christian, or that might not fully believe... they know there's a higher power but they don't fully believe, they'll say: "Well, if there's a God, how come children be mutilated?" But you've got to remember that the promises are when we leave this Earth and we go to Heaven. That's what I believe.

The Bible says that if we're going to boast about anything, it should glorify God. I'll boast about all of my faults, I'll boast about all of my addictions that God has conquered, I'll boast about everything that God has conquered in my life, but there's just certain things that I'll never talk about.

I don't have a problem with dying but I have a problem with what I'm going to die for. I don't want to die for no reason at all. If I'm going to die for something, I want it to be worthwhile.