I donโt want these memories to become slippery, to just disappear into the thin air of life the way most things seem to. I want them to stick โ even the bad ones โ so I repeat them often.
Sara ZarrOther memories stick, no matter how much you wish they wouldnโt. Theyโre like a song you hate but canโt ever get completely out of your head, and this song becomes the background noise of your entire life, snippets of lyrics and lines of music floating up and then receding, a crazy kind of tide that never stops.
Sara ZarrI do have a little bit more confidence in - or at least familiarity with - my process. For example, when it feels like it's going badly or that I'm lost, I know I'll eventually find my way because I've been through it before. But writing itself is still hard.
Sara ZarrAnd he left. I watched him walk out โ he didnโt say good-bye, he didnโt even look back. It scared me, how easy it was for him to do that.
Sara ZarrLife was mostly made up of things you couldnโt control, full of surprises, and they werenโt always good. Life wasnโt what you made it. You were what life made you.
Sara ZarrI don't yell back at my mother. When I'm angry or scared or upset, I don't yell. I stay quiet. I've seen how she is, how she would get with Kent and with me and with other people, life if someone at the pharmacy got in the wrong line or asked too long a question, or if someone on the bus accidentally bumped her. I've watched her my whole life, the way people react to her. It doesn't actually help you get what you want, yelling and being like that. It only makes people think bad of you.
Sara Zarr