That was the hard thing about grief, and the grieving. They spoke another language, and the words we knew always fell short of what we wanted them to say.
Sarah DessenI am not breaking my rules,' I snapped, hating that I'd ended up on the advice-recieving end of things, jumping from Dear Remy to Confused in Cincinnati all in one summer.
Sarah DessenI've given lots of people chances. But there's only so much faith you can have in people.
Sarah DessenAnd don't change for a guy, ever," Leah added. "If they're worthy, they'll like you just the way you are.
Sarah DessenThe only thing I can't stand more than seeing something done wrong is seeing it done slowly.
Sarah DessenWell, it's true that I have been hurt in my life. Quite a bit. But it's also true that I have loved, and been loved. And that carries a weight of its own. A greater weight, in my opinion. It's like that pie chart we talked about earlier. In the end, I'll look back on my life and see that the greatest piece of it was love. The problems, the divorces, the sadness... those will be there too, but just smaller slivers, tiny pieces.
Sarah DessenI didn't want to leave things the way we had, unresolved, ... and tried to tell myself he cared about me enough not to look elsewhere for what I wasn't giving him.
Sarah DessenIt shouldn't be easy to be amazing. Then everything would be. It's the things you fight for and struggle with before earning that have the greatest worth. When something's difficult to come by, you'll do that much more to make sure it's even harder โ or impossible โ to lose.
Sarah DessenThere are some things in this world you rely on, like a sure bet. And when they let you down, shifting from where you've carefully placed them, it shakes your faith, right where you stand.
Sarah DessenOnce Iโm done with a book, Iโm done! Iโm just not a sequel kind of girl. By the time Iโve finished a book Iโve read it so many times that itโs time to move on.
Sarah DessenThe worst part was that I had things I wanted to tell my mother, too many to count, but none of them would go down so easy. She'd been through too much, between my siters-I could not add to the weight. So instead, I did my best to balance it out, bit by bit, word by word, story by story, even if none of them were true.
Sarah DessenI'd known enough people for every minute of the day, and yet still didn't have anyone as my two a.m.
Sarah DessenAnd she was good to me: strong, fun, and fiercely loyal. And if I didn't have many other friends because of her-most girls were intimidated by her looks, or thought she was too pushy, or just flat-out feared for their boyfriends-it never bothered me. I never missed having a wide, thick circle of girlfriends: Rina was more than enough. We were comfortable with each other's flaws and weaknesses, so we stuck together and kept to ourselves.
Sarah DessenHow ballsy it was to just assume you know, with one glance, the things another person could live without. As if it was the same for everyone, that simple.
Sarah Dessenclosed my eyes and listened. It was like music I'd heard all my life, even more than "This Lullaby." All those keystrokes, all those letters, so many words. I brushed my fingers over the beads and watched as her image rippled, like it was on water, breaking apart gently and shimmering before becoming whole again.
Sarah DessenI don't talk about my books while I'm writing them: not even my husband knows what a novel's about until it's done.
Sarah DessenMy agent is so totally honest, which is just what every writer needs. She won't let me sell a crappy book, even if I want to.
Sarah DessenTogether, we looked down at the tiny house, the sole thing on this vast, flat surface. Like the only person living on the moon. It could be either lonely or peaceful, depending on how you looked at it. "It's a start," I said.
Sarah DessenI think readers are just looking for things that maybe they recognize or can relate to in the books.
Sarah DessenโWell," Isaid finally, knowing he was waiting, โyou make me laugh.โ He nodded. โAnd?โ โYou're pretty good-looking." ""Pretty good-looking? I called you beautiful." "You want to be beautiful?" I asked him. "Are you saying I'm not?"
Sarah DessenIt was like that part of my life, was just gone. It was almost too easy, for something I once thought had meant everything.
Sarah DessenEven if you couldn't see it beneath the surface, molecules were bonding, energy pushing up slowly, as something worked do hare, all alone to grow.
Sarah DessenI've found in my own life that if my writing isn't going well, not much else will. It is the one constant, the key to everything else.
Sarah DessenI'd been running for years: there was nothing scarier, to me, than to just be still with someone. And yet, there on that dark road, going home, I was.
Sarah DessenI hoped this was true. Even if it wasnโt, all I could do was hand over what I could, with the hope of something in return. But of course, this was easier said than done.
Sarah DessenI tried to hold myself apart, showing only what I wanted, doling out bits and pieces of who I was. But that only works out for so long. Eventually, even the smallest fragments can't help but, make a whole.
Sarah DessenWhen he stopped walking and kissed me a few minutes later, it was like time had stopped, with the air, my heart, and the world all so still. And it was this I remembered every other time I was with Marshall.
Sarah DessenWe'd start slow, the way we always did, because the run, and the game, could go on for a while. Maybe even forever. That was the thing. You just never knew. Forever was so many different things. It was always changing, it was what everything was really all about. It was twenty minutes, or a hundred years, or just this instant, or any instant I wished would last and last. But there was only one truth about forever that really mattered, and that was this: it was happening. Right then, as I ran with Wes into that bright sun, and every moment afterwards. Look, there. Now. Now. Now.
Sarah DessenAll the bitchy girls in the world are just a training ground for what men can do to you.
Sarah DessenDespite my dad's assurances I was strangely nervous my stomach tight ever since we'd hung up. Maybe Deb had picked up on this and it was why she'd pretty much talked nonstop since I'd approached her and asked for a ride. I'd barely had time to explain the situation before she had launched into a dozen stories to illustrate the point that Things Happened But People Were Okay in the End.
Sarah DessenThe mistakes you make now count. Not for everything, and not forever. But they do matter, and they shape you.
Sarah DessenFall in love with someone who truly deserves your heart. Not with someone who plays with it.
Sarah DessenWake up, Caitlin, Mr. Lensing had said. But what he didn't underยญstand was that this dreamland was preferable, walking through this life half-sleeping, everything at arm's length or farther away.
Sarah DessenAs for me, I was just trying to get it right, whatever that means. But now I finally felt I was on my way. Everyone had a forever, but given a choice, this would be mine. The one that began in this moment, with Wes, in a kiss that took my breath away, then gave it back - leaving meastounded, amazed and most of all, alive.
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