As for me, I was just trying to get it right, whatever that means. But now I finally felt I was on my way. Everyone had a forever, but given a choice, this would be mine. The one that began in this moment, with Wes, in a kiss that took my breath away, then gave it back - leaving meastounded, amazed and most of all, alive.

It's only advice. Ignore it if you want.

It's okay to accept things from people. It doesn't make you weak or helpless.

Everyone laughed, and just like that, the conversation shifted, jumping to another topic. It was fast and furious, the talking, the emotions, the back-and-forth and forth-and-back. I realized that if I tried to focus on it too much, I got overwhelmed. So I just decided to relax into it, bumpy and crazy as it might be, and try for once to just go along for the ride.

Call it crazy, or just chicken salad.

There's this other half of him I don't know of, it's like he is trying to keep it a secret... if he would just let me inside so I can help.

You didn't fail. You just opted out. There's a difference.