This is how most people live: alive, but not conscious; conscious but not aware; aware, but intermittently.
That's what opium does to suffering: makes it of hypothetical interest only.
It's only after the change is fully formed that you can see what's happened.
Why take drugs specifically designed to send you insane?
We all operate on different levels of awareness. Half the time I don't know what I'm doing.
Oh, the sweetness of giving in, of full surrender.